I hate to come back but, have to.........

For the first time, it was like finding me in myself while exploring the new world on my own. But as it passes on, it looks like I am losing my world forever, the little world in which I grew from baby to a man. I can't define either the feeling of heart overwhelmed with joy when I was coming to Bangalore for the first time or now the feeling of heavy hearted good bye to Hyderabad.

Should I feel happy for designing a new world for myself here in Bangalore or repent for the fading relationships at my own place. Is this new world worth the loss of my own old world which selflessly gave me everything I have and am now? Can I makeup again with the ruins of my relationships back there? The answer for the continuously questioning of my inner soul putting all my anguish is, just silence.

I miss saying a heart felt good bye to a friend leaving India; I miss the feeling of sharing the details of a friend falling in love for the first time; I miss the friendship day with all my friends around; I miss sharing my problems with my friend in the lonely Hi-tech City MMTS station. Than all these I miss the feeling of being young, not just for being pampered by parents, but being around with my friends who were with me from my young times and going around those places I grew, all these make my heart feel younger always.

After all these clash of thoughts I had on Sunday night, on Monday night while I was resting after all that hectic work all day, I felt all of the sudden in a contradicting way thoughts. I felt it was not the new world of mine which is resulting in fading my old relations but it was my incapability of proper time slotting which is and was hindering them. Realizing this I think for sure I will put out some time on high priority to strengthen my fading relations.