Sky is the limit......................

..........Nevertheless, remember we still are on the ground.

A beggar thinks of his next meal, a daily laborer of a stomach full of meal, vegetable seller thinks on how to make the ends of a week meet, a office boy thinks of the month end survival, a graduate employee dreams his EMI’s also be waived off as the farm loan, ..................... as we go on and on, we will for sure reach the sky with a billionaire dreaming of resortic life on moon,

All this is natural they say----- always to think high and try to achieve it, but why is it that I eat a chocolate just casually when my watchman plans a week to buy it for his son? Why is that I spend Rs. 350 on a glass of Margareta floating on the high of lifestyle when the same amount is a month’s pay for my maid?

We know sky is the limit for all the heights of hope and want, but don’t we still stand on the same ground? When I used to ask my grandma “If God is good for all, then why did he make the rich and the poor?”,

She just used to tell it all goes as per our deeds. So, if god only runs our life’s play, why put the deeds balance in our kitty? I have no answer for this!!!!

I am just one person, but with 100’s of problems, 1000’s of thoughts, lakh’s of questions thinking about millions of people and about their survival in the world of billions,

I dream of a world where everyone thinks of traversing back to their roots....................................... And every thing becomes and every one is happy.

My first team outing ………..

As mentioned in my previous blog, Yesterday was our team outing at the resort, “club cabana” on the outskirts of Bangalore. Every one was filled with excitement imagining the fun we would have taking a day out. So was I, putting all my imagination skills at work to max. I was just excited to the fullest as it was my first team out here in this company.

All this would start with picking all of us at different pick up points and my pickup was at 9 am. My dreams almost took over me and pushed me into deep sleep. I was in my own world with all my friends around me having all kinds of fun and then came a big tide of water from the beautifully landscaped mountains, splashing so bad to flash we away to a distance. My eyes were watery, I couldn’t even see properly, but from a long distance I could here the Don Song -" Mae hu don" slightly and suddenly it became high---- so I woke up to find my phone ringing. It was one of my colleague giving me a wake-up call remaining me about the outing. the call was mainly to make sure that I would be ready to get into the pool so pack the needed stuff.

It was 8 am already and I need to hurry up. But it was only by 9:05 am I could make it to start from my place. It was too late as I said earlier; I should have been at my pick up point by now. Then as I mentioned to you already, I was to go through all the trauma after which I finally left to the pickup point, where my manager picked me up and we lead to the resort to meet the others there. We, frankly speaking I, enjoyed to the max I could take. This being the second time for many of them, it made them feel routine and dull. But it was very different In my case as water was my best buddy so had most the time with it, that felt like I was getting out the little mermaid in me. Finally returned home tired like hell. The day was like two completely different parts of life ----- one trauma result of bad sad things and the other joy of good happier things.

Trauma for 1000’s as life went stand still for hours……..

Yesterday was our team outing at the resort, “club cabana” on the outskirts of Bangalore. As I walked to the road to catch the bus to my pick up point ---- I was greeted by a huge traffic jam. It was utter chaos all the way, never ending serpentine queues on the road stood still till all the length I could see. It was as if god was fed up with all the noise in the peak hour and just casted them to still. The side line of the main road was a bit free and I caught a volve, relieving myself from the fear of missing the outing bus. But to my astonishment the drive only last for few meters and when I enquired about the source of all this chaos ------ no one knows it. So I waited helplessly for sometime hoping for miracle to happen, but later took a decision, made up my mind to walk till the traffic is done.


My walk which was supposedly expected to be a few meters went on and on to result as long as 5 Kms finally. As it is said “when in life you end up in a dead end solving a problem then, don’t loose hope but try tracing back to the source of all this and for sure it will result fruitful”. As I did this, I travelled all the way to the source of all this jam which as expected was a accident involving a lorry ramping into a signal post, street light after hitting a two wheeler, trolley auto – resulting in taking life of one on the spot . this happened at 5:45 am but the police only responded to this horrible accident at 8 Am that to as the traffic was hit badly. This was a pure show of their insignificance towards carrying on their own duty to safe guard the people. The irate locals in support to relatives and friends of the victim arose to stall the complete flow of traffic. So there were high tensed moments questioning the insignificance shown by the police which broke the tolerance level of these locals.


It took 6 Hrs to clear this traffic and set the life of the 1000’s strangled here on to normal, but my walk through this jam gave me a complete different inhuman feel. I could feel the indifference to value of life, impatience, gadget bug lifestyle, busy life syndrome etc. I could see the vehicles on the road abandoned as the owners locked and left for some shade escaping the burning sun. it was a clearly showing, sun was venting his anguish seeing these people’s inhuman intentions. This was a boon for the telecomm ISP’s as everyone was on call complaining about their condition to someone or the other, but it looked as if people forgot to speak to each other without a phone. There were a few who were doing their networking to increase self’s public relations, few were having tea at the nearby tea stall and cursing whoever gets in their mind from BBMP to CM. there was one particular person who caught my special attention for a long time, he was standing in a tea stall, having a normal tea using his laptop plugged in at the stall and browsing the web. Interesting yes?

But some where I felt this jam was also for good. People of different lifestyles were left on the same platform to interact and get across the various views of each and they did so.

The God and Us……….. Are we connected?

Every time I pass by a temple or see a mythological movie, many questions arise in my mind. The questions like ------- Why we believe in god and hope he does good to us? Why we think there is some one listening to all the cry of pain and hope for better? How do we believe that god controls us and our life? If he really does, how? At first I thought these questions are pointing at my own customs, beliefs, but later I realized that these are the questions which when answered will lead to know the meaning of life, how to live it and why?

Don’t miss understand me to be atheistic, I believe a lot in God. Then why are these questions around my mind? You will know that as you goon. These questions are in my mind for a long time, but the realization I mentioned about came just recently when I came across a generic proverb user by my grandma--- “Dear whenever you are in a confusion over taking a decision then listen to your brain if the issue is about your professional life and listen to your heart if it is about your personal life”.

As I heard this a thought ran across my mind, why do we need two thinking centers when we need only one? Can you guess why, before we go ahead? Brain is a very complex thinking center which is trained from the time of your birth to be molded into what it is now. It is molded under the rules of our cultures, ethics, customs, and values. But heart on the other hand is a very simple emotional, soft, humane and subconsciously controlled thinking center. It is not molded, but is what we are born with and fortified with a layer of beliefs. So this is the window through which we are controlled by God. Out it…………………

I hate to come back but, have to.........

For the first time, it was like finding me in myself while exploring the new world on my own. But as it passes on, it looks like I am losing my world forever, the little world in which I grew from baby to a man. I can't define either the feeling of heart overwhelmed with joy when I was coming to Bangalore for the first time or now the feeling of heavy hearted good bye to Hyderabad.

Should I feel happy for designing a new world for myself here in Bangalore or repent for the fading relationships at my own place. Is this new world worth the loss of my own old world which selflessly gave me everything I have and am now? Can I makeup again with the ruins of my relationships back there? The answer for the continuously questioning of my inner soul putting all my anguish is, just silence.

I miss saying a heart felt good bye to a friend leaving India; I miss the feeling of sharing the details of a friend falling in love for the first time; I miss the friendship day with all my friends around; I miss sharing my problems with my friend in the lonely Hi-tech City MMTS station. Than all these I miss the feeling of being young, not just for being pampered by parents, but being around with my friends who were with me from my young times and going around those places I grew, all these make my heart feel younger always.

After all these clash of thoughts I had on Sunday night, on Monday night while I was resting after all that hectic work all day, I felt all of the sudden in a contradicting way thoughts. I felt it was not the new world of mine which is resulting in fading my old relations but it was my incapability of proper time slotting which is and was hindering them. Realizing this I think for sure I will put out some time on high priority to strengthen my fading relations.